Lizze was kind enough to let me go back to sleep this morning.  After taking Elliott to school I just couldn't keep my eyes open. Even after a couple of hours, I'm still dead to the world.  I think that life is just catching up to me a little bit.  I'm really stressed out right now and I'm truly overwhelmed by a great many things. I'm going to have a healthy lunch and refuel my body. With any luck, that will help.  Lizze got me a book on Green Smoothies and while they probably are horribly disgusting, I'm anxious to give them a try.  I'm all about healthy eating and that's about as healthy as you can get.

This whole thing with losing Rogue today has brought up a lot of old memories.  It's sorta funny how something like this can spark so many memories, long buried and forgotten and bring them to the surface for you to relive. The events of Sunday have certainly done that for me. I had completely forgotten that Rogue was by my side when I laid eyes on the woman that would become my best friend, my wife and the mother of my children, for the very first time. If it wasn't for Rogue, I would never have been at the park that day. That being the case, mine and Lizze's paths may never have crossed. For that reason alone, I will be forever grateful to my overly enthusiast and always shedding  …

I mentioned earlier that we were supposed to go to Cleveland and visit my Mom's side of the family. It's been a really long time since we have been there and we were excited at the prospect of going.  Enter life....... Unfortunately, our plans have changed once again. Elliott is unwilling to leave the house.  The idea of leaving the house is what actually triggered the massive meltdown he had earlier. Normally, he loves going to visit relatives but lately he just can't seem to handle it.  Lizze and I have learned to follow their cues, even if we don't necessarily like what those cues are telling us.  I even tried to get Elliott to go to the store and pick out decorations for the Christmas tree. I thought it…

I've mentioned that Elliott was really moody lately.  This morning he had a meltdown. A really, really big one.  I classify this as a meltdown as apposed to a tantrum because he is very clearly completely overwhelmed and almost beside himself. In his meltdown, he hurled his remote control and nearly hit Lizze.  Was he aiming for her?  I don't think so.  However, that doesn't really matter because the fact is, he threw the remote. Elliott has never, never done anything like this before.  I'm really getting concerned because it's like he's beginning to act like Gavin. Maybe he's used to the chaos and so in Gavin's absence he's not sure what to do. All I know is that I'm very worried about him. We were going to try to…

I got a call from my Dad this morning.  He was letting me know that he thinks my old dog had a stroke last night. I got Rogue back in 2000 right before I started paramedic school. When I met Lizze and moved out, Rogue stayed behind because they didn't want to part with her.  Sadly, I suspect that she will be put to rest on Monday. She's in really bad shape and has lost control over the right side of her body over night. She basically falls over when she trys to walk and is drooling uncontrollably.  She seems completely disoriented and has stopped eating as well. She's 13 years old and at this point, her quality of life is not very high. Honestly, I would suspect that she's…