When we bought this van in January, there was an stone chip in the windshield. I wanted the windshield replaced but they said they could fill it and it would be fine. Well, low and behold the first morning of the first real snow we had this winter comes and the windshield breaks. We got into the van yesterday after letting it warm up and Lizze and I watched as the windshield cracked ,clear across. It started from the stone chip and spread in both directions. I'm hoping Ford will replace it since their repair didn't work. If not, than we're looking at about a $200 repair. At least it's not in the field of vision or line of sight. Also, it's in the shape a giant smile. It literally…

The boys have been fighting all morning. I don't think that Gavin is the direct reason for the fighting as he's still doing pretty well. I think that the fact he's simply home is going to take some getting used to. Lizze is taking a nap after allowing me to sleep in. I had a rough night because Elliott woke up and ended up not going back to bed. He was having nightmares and so we crashed on the couch. Emmett screaming at me right now so I'm gonna cut this short. Wish me luck......

Elliott wrote this letter the other night and when I found it, my heart just broke.  The letter read: "I miss Gavin because Gavin is not home" It's so difficult because doing the right thing is also causing Elliott pain.  While Gavin is home now, I don't know how long we can keep that up.

It never ever fails that we are always scrambling to get things done at the very last possible minute. This year is more exception. I always promise myself that I'll do better next year and I end up breaking my promise to myself, year in and year out. I think I just get too distracted with everything else going on and there's always something more important at the moment that needs to be done first. It's stressful and exhausting..... Once again we find ourselves scrambling at the last minute to finish preparations for Santa Clause. Are you ready for Santa Clauses arrival?