As difficult as our lives are and as overwhelmed and demoralized as I can get at time, I really try to find some positive. Sometimes the positive is that fact that it could have been worse. Other times it's a real victory like making a good choice or reaching a milestone. Then there are those times when I'm feeling like I'm in a not so good place and one of the boys does something totally crazy and random.  No matter how bad of a mood I'm in, I can't help but smile, laugh and feel better.  This happened last night and came out of nowhere.  Emmett pulled his shirt over his head and just walked around as though nothing was wrong. It was just so unlike him that it caught…

I mentioned earlier that Emmett was mot having a good day. All morning long, he's been changing his mind about everything and then screaming at us as though we weren't listening to him or something.  He wanted one kind of cereal this morning and when I gave it to him, he screamed at me because he now wanted a different kind. I could just start doing the opposite of what he's asking and perhaps head things off at the pass.  However, it would then be that he wouldn't change his mind and I'd be screwed anyway. I'll be really honest with you, I don't have the energy for this today.  I love Emmett but goddammit if he isn't going to drive me crazy this morning.

I was wondering if your child with or without #Autism have a favorite song? I was listening to Tears in Heaven by Eric Clapton the other night. Emmett was in a really bad place and very much overstimulated. He climbed up on my lap and feel asleep listening to this song play over and over again. It seems to really relax him now when he's upset about something. Most times, when he's really upset, he will scream if we try to play music. However, this is a recent exception to that rule. I don't know what it is about this song, perhaps the acoustic guitar, but he finds this very calming. I was wondering if your family had something like this as well? I wanted to get a feel for what…

Something occurred to me the other day, after learning about Lizze's eye problem was more serious than I thought. I was doing some research about exactly how macular holes affect your vision. Basically, they affect your forward vision, meaning they don't impact peripheral vision. Essentially, if Lizze looks at a straight line, it looks fuzzy and broken. The line will appear to be almost dotted. Anyway, it occurred to me that if something is affecting her vision, especially in that manner, could that be what's behind this unforgiving migraine cycle? The reason I'm wondering about this is because these Macular Holes appeared within the last year or so. She didn't have them in her previous eye exam from about a year and a half ago. They did however, show up…