Perhaps I'm a glutton for punishment or maybe off my rocker. However, I will be trying to take the boys to get their long overdue haircuts.. Right now, Emmett's pretty excited to go. His mood however, is likely to change when we get there. I'll let you all know how it goes. Wish me luck.......
Lizze is having a really bad day, pain-wise and so she laying in bed. Emmett and I are hanging out together. After breakfast and a few episodes of Spiderman Unlimited, he decided that Play Doh was the direction we should take the morning in.. I've said this before but I say it again, Play Doh is amazing for kids on the #autism spectrum. At least that's my experience. There is good sensory feedback from squishing the Play Doh between fingers and even toes. Anyway, today Emmett decided that we were going to go bowling with Play Doh. I made the round bowling balls out of Play Doh and Emmett, being the resourceful little man that he is, used an old DS stylus to make the holed for our fingers. Then…
Today started out really well. Elliott didn't a fantastic job of getting up, dressed and off to school this morning. I showered him with praise because I was and am, so proud of him.
Today has been a rough one for me. I'm feeling pressure in many areas right now and trying to hold everyone together. Recently, I been feeling very, very defeated. The truth is, life doesn't stop because your a special needs family. There aren't any free passes just because life is more challenging. No one really takes into account that you have very challenging children or a chronically ill spouse. You're held to the same standards as anyone else would be. Honestly, there are times that I just want to scream how unfair that is. How can a special needs family be held to the same standards as someone without those challenges? There are other times that I feel more accomplished because we've been able to rise to the occasion despite…
My evening was going well......or at least better. Lizze and I were watching Swamp Loggers and I was finally relaxing. Next thing I know, everything in the room went dark. Blue, Emmett's kitten, was playing behind the TV and has discovered how much fun it is to press the button on the power strip and shut everything off. Thankfully, Maggie is now guarding the TV and we should be able to finish our show without further interruption. :-)
Just to let everyone know, I'm in a really bad place right now. I don't have any energy left right now to do much of anything. I think that I've reached a point where I have nothing left. I'm really tired and just not coping well with everything. Most of which you all know about, some of which you don't. I plan on sharing what's going on in another post at another time. I think I'm going to take the rest of the night and just hang out with Lizze. We've been watching Swamp Loggers on Netflix. If I'm feeling better, perhaps I'll write some more tonight. Writing always makes me feel better. Right now, I just feel like I don't have the capacity to even that.
Who doesn't love stickers? Stickers are a sign of accomplishment. When we were kids, a sticker on our school work meant a job well done. Emmett is no exception to this sticker loving rule, although he takes it to a bit of an extreme. He loves wearing stickers like there some kind of tattoo. Thankfully, this ink is removable when he's done. You can see in the picture how happy he is, covered in stickers. Which, strikes me as a bit odd. For a kid with severe sensory issues, one would think that this would be unpleasant for him.
I had a horrible nights sleep or rather lack of sleep. This whole thing with Elliott still has me pretty torn up. However, I got up to Elliott being just fine this morning. He's in a really good mood. He got ready and off to school without any significant problems. When I got him to school I gave him a big hug and told him how much I loved him. I don't know if he even remembers last night and I didn't want to bring it up right before school. It was really nice to just get a huge from him. A new day is upon us. I'm just going to support Elliott any way I can. I'd rather not be his verbal punching bag but whatever he needs.