Happy 13th Birthday Gavin
Today is a bittersweet for me. It's Gavin's 13th Birthday and he's not here. This is the first time that I can ever remember not being together on his birthday. I understand why things have to be this way but it still sucks. I called to wish him a Happy birthday from all of us and he was more interested in watching cartoons then talking to me on the phone. I make the mistake of assuming that he's as upset at being gone as I am that it has to be this way. The truth is, he really doesn't care. It's the nature of his condition and something I will probably always struggle with on some level. Lizze's grandparents are throwing a birthday party for him and his friends at…