It’s been a long morning so far. Elliott and Emmett weren’t moving very fast today. We did however, make it to school, albeit a little late. Truthfully, they weren’t really late, just later than we aim for.

They’re going to hang out with their mom and grandma this afternoon for a couple hours, so I’ll have a brief reprieve.

I’ve said this before but I will say it many more times going forward. It doesn’t matter what happened between their mother and I. That’s a grownup situation. My personal feelings can’t play a roll in deciding what’s best for the kids. I think it’s great that the kids get to see their mom. Frankly, I would be upset if they couldn’t.

Ideally, kids should have access to both parents and that relationship with both parents should be happy and healthy. It doesn’t have to be perfect but the kids should be put first and kept out of the emotional fray.

I didn’t want any of this and I’m not afraid to say that. It’s not a secret, and the kids already know that because we all basically found out about this at the same time. I’ve learned to accept that I have no control over the actions of others. It doesn’t take away the pain but it does help with perspective.

The reason I say that is because despite all of this tragedy, heartache and pain, I’m so grateful that the kids still have a relationship with their mom. I would never want that to change.

Anyway, I went off on a tangent but it needed to be said.

Gavin and I went walking with my Mom this morning. He’s probably going to take a nap until his mom and grandma pick him up this afternoon.

I know this post was kinda scattered but as I said, it’s been a long morning.