Despite my best efforts to manage everything I’m failing. There are times when it’s less obvious then others and there are times it just smacks me in the face. Today was one of those days for me. It was a rough day to start with but I was managing pretty well I thought.

I was in the kitchen eariler today and when I walked back out into the living room I saw something that just killed me. Lizze was on her hands and knees trying to crawl up the stairs to the second floor because she couldn’t walk. I was hit with the realization of how bad things have actually gotten. I realized just how much I’m not able to do for my family. I can’t ease my wife’s burden or my kids lives. Say what you will and call it what you want but to me it’s failure.