I’ve been struggling a bit lately.  I’m burnt out and completely emotionally exhausted. Being a single parent is not easy and there are many things that simply fall by the wayside because I am but one person.

Something that I don’t think people outside the circle (the circle being the Autism/Special Needs communities) understand is just how much of our lives we must triage.

Triage is essential because there is almost no way to accomplish everything you need to  accomplish in any given day.  Speaking for myself, I can say that I’m constantly having to triage or prioritize everything.

I get frustrated and overwhelmed because trying to make progress on things like house work, organization and frankly, just about everything else, is very difficult.

I feel like I spend most of my time putting out the proverbial fires and trying to simply manage the meltdowns, interventions, therapies, doctors, medications, diets and education of my three kids.  Everything is more complicated when it comes to kids with Autism because their needs are so complex and difficult to meet.

Lately, I’ve been beating myself up because I’ve fallen behind on so many things in my life.

Feeling that I’m letting my kids down is very much a daily thing anymore.  Trying to keep myself from giving into the overwhelming urge to give up, quit or just let the world run me over, isn’t easy.

It seems like nothing can just work out and everything’s a struggle.

There’s only one reason I don’t quit.  Actually, three reasons why I don’t quit.  I’d be lying if I said it was easy to keep picking up and moving forward but my kids need me to do that and so that’s one thing I will not fail at.