i am so overwhelmed right now I feel like I’m going to vomit. I just feel like I am coming apart at the seams and barely holding it together. Today has not been a good day at all. Bad news after bad news just keeps coming our way. I just can’t take it anymore. I want to scream and run away.

So we heard from one of Emmett’s doctors today. We know now that Emmett has severe type 2 allergy to milk. I guess they said the milk binds to his cell membranes or something that’s not a good thing. He also has a type 1 allergy to egg as well. Basically he has to go on a vegan diet except he can eat meat.  Milk and egg is in almost everything. I’m not sure what we are going to do. Things are tough enough the way they are. Now we have to police everything he eats. We also have to start giving him Mucilax everyday as well. We are literally barely surviving as it is how are we going to handle the extra load? This adds a whole new demension of complexity to our lives.

I also realized that basically everything we have been feeding him has been making him sick. That feels really good to know that. We have to completely revamp our shopping now. We will have to do what we have to do. It’s not Emmett’s fault but the extra steps that are now required will be adding a huge amount of strain to an already overburdened system. I don’t know how we are going to implement this new diet. We almost have to do it accross the board in order for it to work. Emmett will never go for being singled out so to speak. Everyone is going to want the same thing as the next one. This is going to be a nightmare but at least we can actually help Emmett to feel better by doing this….