Thankfully, I’m feeling a bit better this morning.  Emmett on the other hand, doesn’t appear to be. He’s become very, very persnickety.

I think there are many contributing factors to his demeanor and none of it is really his fault. 

Having said that, simply because we don’t blame him for how he’s acting doesn’t mean it impacts us any less.  I assure you, listening to anyone scream their head off over seemingly random things, doesn’t get easier with time.

In fact, to be completely honest, it slowly erodes away what’s left of my sanity.

I wish I knew how to help Emmett through, whatever it is he’s going through. I wish I could remove what is so clearly burdening him. 

The problem is, I can’t really do any of that.

For starters, I don’t even know what’s wrong.  If he’s hitting a fever flares, there’s nothing that can be done. It must run its course.

If it’s sensory related, we can try and remove as much stimuli as possible and help him to become more grounded.

This is so frustrating and it’s frustrating on a number of levels because Emmett has #Autism and because of the inherent developmental delay, it’s harder for him to express himself. 

This leaves us in the dark for much of the time. 

Emmett’s come a long way but there are still many areas in his life that are profoundly impacted or developmentally delayed.

I really wish he could just tell us what was wrong so we could help him through it.  🙁