Do you ever associate a song with a specific place or event?
Yesterday evening, one the way home from the devastating appointment, this song was playing on the radio.
This song will forever be etched into my mind and associated with learning that my son will never get better.
Having said that, I feel like Home is a song about hope. If I had to associate what happened yesterday with one specific song, I think this was the perfect one. 
I’m not hugely religious. I was born, raised and remain Catholic. While I don’t buy into everything that has been taught to me, over the years, I do have faith. After all we have endured and our children have endured, especially Gavin, my faith has been in question.
However, perhaps this is a sign that someone is looking out for us.
Maybe it’s a subtle hint that we are doing the right thing.
Whatever the case may be, I have found a new song and I really appreciate the words and the message behind it. I will listen to this whenever I feel my strength or resolve waning.
I wanted to share it with you. Perhaps you can find meaning in this as well.
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Wow! What a song for the situation you are in! I would definitely say that you heard from a God who loves you (and loves Gavin). Also, I read your posts every day and just want you to know that because you love Gavin and the rest of your family, you'll make the right choices regarding him. Don't fear your choices because you'll make the right ones, and if you DO make a mistake, God redeems mistakes. Thanks for your willingness to share your journey. You're doing a good job.
Carol Stout
The first thing I did when I got up this morning was check your blog. My heart aches for you and your family, Rob. I wish I could take it all away, and give you the life of your dreams.
I know what it's like to have a child who will never get better – a child who disrupts and causes pain to the family where you're at the point you just can't take it anymore, but you love them so, so much… I know what it's like to be overcome with fear and dread.
Don't despair. God is very real, and He's right there with you and Lizzie and Gavin and Elliott and Emmett. I say this not from "blind faith" but experience. I never would have survived without Him. Even when I have been lost and tired (exhausted is more like it) and plagued by doubts, God has kept up His end. Even when I have been too grief-stricken to pray, and couldn't feel His presence at all, I eventually learned that He was there all along.
I'm not a bible-thumper or evangelist. Just someone who has gone through very deep waters, over and over again. I promise you, God is real. You have heaven on your side.
Hi Rob,
I had a listen to the song and I think you are right it definitely has a message of hope behind it. I am sorry to hear that you are having such a rough time of it recently. I am a follower of your blog although I have been a 'lurker' until now and I just want to let you know that you are never alone when you become a family of special needs because no matter where you are in the world someone will be thinking of you and wishing you all the best. I hope that things work out well for you soon and know that you have some 'family' in the UK who are thinking of you and sending all the positive thoughts that we can your way.Keep your chin up fella!