Elliott got off to school without a hitch. Emmett is still sleeping because his school is closed because there’s not enough people to staff the building, as everyone is out with COVID. I have so many feelings about this. One of the more overwhelming feelings has to do with teachers not being vaccinated. I just don’t understand how we are allowing that to happen. It puts everyone at risk and we’re barely able to keep the schools open right now as it is. I would have to guess that Emmett most likely won’t have school tomorrow either. Elliott doesn’t have school on Friday for some reason and all this educational inconsistency is destabilizing, especially for kids in the spectrum.

I wish I had a bit more energy this morning but I didn’t sleep well last night. At the moment, I’m waiting on a phone call and planning out the rest of my day.

The house is quiet and peaceful. I just want to enjoy the calm before much more of the day gets started. Gavin needs his IVIG infusion this morning, and I have some errands to run before Elliott gets picked up from school.

I’ve been lost in thought recently but I’m trying to keep myself focused. I wish I could explain how hard that seems to be for me anymore but it is what it is. Life isn’t perfect and neither am I. At the same time, I’m grateful for the life I have and working hard to make it even better. I’ve been writing every day for the last few days and while that’s not easy at the moment, it’s definitely a positive thing though. Writing allows me to put my thoughts into words, share them, and walk away. It lightens my load and helps me to remain centered.

I feel good about today and I’m going to make the best of everything. I hope you all have a great start to the week.