Last night I shared a tweet and I wanted to to further explain. First of all, I truly appreciate the love and support. It means a lot. While I didn’t sleep well last night because Emmett didn’t sleep well, today is a new day and I’m in a better place.
I’m just gonna put this out there. #Depression f*cking sucks.. 😔
— Rob Gorski (@theautismdad) November 21, 2019
There’s a great deal going on in my life that has me completely overwhelmed. These things are fueling my depression and kicking it into overdrive.
It’s been a rough year and it’s weighing heavy on me. In January I lost my grandfather, in June I lost my grandmother and in August my wife left me to raise our kids alone. I’ve been shattered three times this year and I’m struggling to put myself back together. All of my grandparents are gone and my family has been ripped apart.
That’s very difficult to adjust to.
This will be the first holiday season without my grandparents and without my family being whole. Family means everything to me and between my kids struggling and my own grief, I’m left feeling broken.
I’m struggling with my focus on selfcare but I’m pushing myself as best I can. I’m struggling to focus on work and it doesn’t help that my sleep is constantly disrupted as a result of my kids not sleeping well at night. As any Autism or Special Needs parent will already know, when our kids don’t sleep, we don’t sleep.
Christmas is going to be especially challenging and I’m heartbroken knowing that my family won’t be whole.
So yes, I’m struggling but I’m trying very hard to keep moving forward. I have to keep working. I have to take care of my kids and I have to get them through the holidays. We have to begin building a new life.
Once again, I appreciate all the concern and I’m very grateful for every single one of you. ☺
We all stand with you Rob and I know that is cold comfort when you are alone with your lovely boys and in need of help but you are in fact doing an incredibly wonderful job caring for you all. I wish I was your neighbor for I would be over to give you a break as often as possible. Caring for children is hard enough for any parent let alone one with the extra mountain of grief and loss of their partner on top of children who need extra care and attention, So please don’t ever allow yourself to become so low and swamped by it all that you stop coping, ask everywhere you can for help because you need to have breaks so that you can regain your energy and have private moments to sift through everything that has happened this year.
It’s going to be hard, Rob. But I believe that you and your sons can have a good life anyway. Hang in their buddy!
I’m very sorry for all of your losses and for the toll it’s taking on you. I hope you come out of this stronger than before.