I asked the boys if they wanted to go, knowing that they would jump at the opportunity.
We ended up spending a few hours with our family. The kids spent time with their little cousin and got to be kids for a bit. They had a really good time, as did I. Elliott even pulled out of his funk for a little while and enjoyed himself as well.
On the way home, we voted to stop at the grocery store so we could avoid having to go out again today.
Elliott’s mood had declined by that point and he was refusing to talk. He would type out his words in a word doc on his phone and that was his way of communicating last night after the party.
He did manage to fall asleep which is very positive because sleep is a problem for him right now.
Mr. Emmett on the other hand, was unable to sleep. He came into my room about 11pm and finished watching a movie with me. Eventually, he opted to go back to his own bed where he was finally able to fall asleep.
Gavin is doing fine or at least his version of fine. Right now he’s very focused on the Sonic movie coming out soon. Nothing else really matters to him at the moment.
Anyway, that’s what’s going on right now and for the most part gets you caught up.
My goal is to write a bit more today and try to get back into the swing of things. Depression is making things much harder for me right now than they have to be but I’m moving forward, albeit slowly.
I do have one other comment relating to your kids’ mom. I hope that things progress to where you are able to allow them to spend more overnight time, or that Lizze’s health is up to seeing them more. Things that are going on are still in a flux with you all, and will continue to be in such a state for a time. I’m sorry it’s so painful. I’m guessing things will slowly improve, while not in a steady progression, so that in a couple years all of you will be used to this and your kids’ will feel less insecure.
I remember you mentioning possible meds for depression, and then said that you couldn’t go there because they drastically affect you for awhile? Have you ever tried St John’s wort? It’s very, very cheap, you can research the best brands, and it has been shown to help with mild to moderate depression. And you can buy it at the nearest Walmart/Walgreens/CVS.
I have used it myself off and on for years and so have other family members. I don’t remember it having big side effects but of course, everyone is different. My experience with using herbal medications is that they are milder and thus, the side effects are milder. The main side effect of SJW is supposed to be skin sensitivity to the sun, and I never noticed. And I literally have skin diseases that are exacerbated by the sun.
Of course, this might not be anything you want to try. I don’t remember if you are still on any other meds either. When I use herbal remedies while on prescription drugs, I try to be careful, check drug interactions, take small doses, and experiment carefully. That might be too much work!