Elliott is very difficult right now and Emmett is literally bouncing off the walls. They go at each other and can get loud but nothing too too crazy. I do have to intervene at times but I guess I didn’t know it was bothering Gavin so much. There’s no question that I’m experiencing levels of stress that I’ve not experienced before and I know that worries him as well. He’s constantly checking on me.

Gavin is putting a tremendous amount of pressure on himself. He said that he feels he needs to pick up the slack since mommy left. This isn’t the first time he’s said that and nothing I can say to him stops him from feeling this way.

We did talk about this in therapy this week and it’s going to be an ongoing process. At least I have a better understanding of what he’s feeling now and how can it not be positive that Gavin opened up about it.

Anyway, this gives you some idea of what is occupying my time right now. I did get two pods recorded and have more scheduled for next week. At this point, I’m two weeks ahead and that feels good. I’m collecting more and more sponsors. My setup is evolving and improving as well.

There are a couple of really cool things that happened over the last few days. I’ve added some new followers and they are kinda mind blowing, at least for me.

Ryan Reynolds, John Cena and Andy Lassner followed me in the same roughly 24 hour period of time. I’ve got a ever growing list of absolutely amazing followers and I’m grateful for every single one of them. This week’s additions just sorta blew my mind. I’m humbled and honored. ☺

This weekend, we have to get the car washed and waxed. We also have trick or treat and that means I have to finish the boys costumes.. We had dinner with my parents tonight and the boys are visiting their mom tomorrow.

There are some really positive things happening in my life but at the same time, there’s a great deal of endless stress and I’m absolutely exhausted.

I’m doing my best to keep up with everything right now and I’m failing miserably but as long as I don’t give up, I’m going to consider it a win, or at the very least, a work in progress. ☺