I’ve been thinking about how to describe the way I’m feeling and the only thing I can come up with is that I’ve had better days. I know that sounds pretty generic but its all I have at the moment. I’m not in a really good place and I’m struggling to sorta keep the ship righted.

I’m completely exhausted both physically and emotionally. I didn’t sleep last night and I can feel depression taking hold of me.

There’s too much happening all at once and I’m bogged down, no longer able to process things right now. All I want to do is shutdown for a little while but unfortunately, that’s simply not an option. I have too many things that I have to figure out in the next couple of days and they aren’t going to figure themselves out.

I have to run out to the store but I don’t want to do anything at all.

I did make myself go walking this afternoon because I cannot let that slide. It’s very important that I continue focusing on weight loss, selfcare and personal betterment. That’s much bigger then just me. I do that because my family deserves the best version of me possible.

Life goes on, even after the loss of a loved one. I’m feeling lost but I have to find a way to work through these obstacles because there’s simply too much riding on that for me to drop the ball here.