I feel like I’m completely drowning tonight. Nothing is going right and I’m absolutely crumbling under the pressure. I try very hard to remain positive and not give into dispair but dispair has won out tonight.

I have nothing left and I give up.

Hopefully, a decent night’s sleep will help me find a better place by morning. Too many people are counting on me and letting them down is simply not an option. I have to figure things out and do better.