Back on point. Any medication change will likely have an impact on me. It can impact me ability to drive and even function.

I’m not sure what I’m going to do but right now, I’m a fan of coming off the meds all together and letting my system stabilize. At that point, we figure out where I am and then do what needs to be done. I’m not against meds but I’ve been on these for so long, I’m unsure of whether or not they are working at all anymore. The best way to know for sure is to remove them and see where I am.

Going off my meds isn’t catastrophic by any means. I could begin obsessing over stupid things and my anxiety increase. I’m highly functional unmedicated but things can be harder to cope with.

At this point, I think it’s worth it, simply to figure out where I am and what changes I need to make to my depression management. My therapist was suggesting that I may benefit more from focusing more on anxiety as that may be the larger issue.

Either way, I won’t make any changes without consulting my doctor because that’s just how I roll and I need to be taken off slowly, over time. That’s the safest way and I’m all about safely doing things. ☺

I’ve been researching how to come of Paxil (40mg) and Wellbutrin XL (150mg). I know I start to get sick after about 3 days of not taking my meds. I’ve had issues with refills before and it wasn’t fun. The biggest thing for me was headaches and nausea but that’s essentially quiting cold turkey. I have zero intention of doing that.

I anticipate this taking a few months because I want this to be as pleasant as possible and have the least amount of impact on everyone around me. Doing this slowly will also give me a chance build up the areas of my life that will help me to naturally manage.

I’ll call my doctor and find out what she thinks and go from there. While I want to get started, I’m not in a rush to get this done.

I know I totally digressed here but this is a big deal for me right now and this post just sorta evolved naturally. My hope is that coming off the meds will at the very least, give me a better understanding of where I am. I will continue to increase exercise and physical activity because that’s extremely important. Hydration, healthy diet and enough sleep are extremely important as well.

This isn’t something I take lightly and I may very well end up on meds again. If I can manage without medications, that’s the path I want to take. My life is never going to be easy and that’s okay. That doesn’t mean I can’t find a better way of coping with it. ☺