I just realized I made a pretty major banking error. I was telling Lizze that we were doing much better this month than I thought we were. It didn’t seem right but I checked, double and triple checked.

This was very positive because it was going to help us get ready for our trip.

As we were talking about it, my stomach sank because I realized why this had been bothering me.

I paid a very large bill to a major utility and forgot about it. Between Gavin’s medication change, planning for our trip and a major family emergency, I completely forgot. I had correctly tracked everything but that.

For whatever reason, that payment hasn’t posted yet and it’s been quite a few days.

I take full responsibility for this but it’s important to put things into context at the same time. I’m human and I make mistakes. When I’m bombarded with everything that’s happened over the last few days, I’m way more likely to make mistakes, no matter how careful I am. This isn’t because I’m careless or irresponsible either. It’s what happens when you’re barely treading water because too much shit keeps haplning..

I’m so angry with myself, because I just shot us in the foot.

I’m not sure how to fix this one. On the plus side of this shitstorm, all our bills are paid. At least everything is current and we can take comfort in that. ☺

While this will undoubtedly hit us pretty hard, it won’t be the first time. I do my best to avoid these kinds of unnecessary problems but it probably won’t be the last time. I’m not perfect at all and this is just one more mistake that proves it.

There will be people who will judge me for this and that’s okay. They don’t get it and that’s okay as well.

I share this because it helps to put our lives into context. It also helps those of you out there who read this and say, I’ve been there, to know you aren’t alone. I totally get it.

How badly this will hit us remains to be seen. All I can do is learn from this and continue moving forward. Dwelling on things like this, doesn’t help anyone.