“This is why I never quit, walk away or give-up”

There are times when I’m so tired of fighting this fight, day in and day out, that I just want quit or give-up.

I think that I’m only designed to deal with so much before my brain just yearns to shutdown.

Enough with the depressing banter though.

This is a positive post and I’m hoping to inspire at least one person who’s struggling, not give-up.

I tend to have really rough days and as a single parent to 3 kids on the Autism Spectrum, that shouldn’t really surprise anyone.

My heart aches for my kids because they are struggling so much since their Mom left last year.

We’re moving forward but there isn’t a part of their lives that hasn’t been impacted.

Things just get so tough at times and trying to meet each of my kids unique demands as special needs children is…… well, there really isn’t a word to describe that level of challenge.

I can get so tired of struggling, failing, hurting and trying to see the positive in this ever evolving nightmare of a journey. Sometimes I just want to stop. I just want everything to stop spinning out of control.

Anyway, I promised positive.

There’s a reason I never quit, walk away or give-up. Actually, there’s 3 reasons and their names are Gavin, Elliott and Emmett. ❤️

The truth is that there’s a 4th reason as well and that’s what I wanted to share.

The 4th reason I never give-up, quit or walk away is because I have no idea what tomorrow holds in store for me. It’s like that old saying that success is getting back up just one more time than you fall. 

In other words, if I give-up on everything, quit and walk away, not only am I failing my children but I’m making huge assumptions about what tomorrow is going to be like before it even happens.

If I had given-up any of the times my exhausted, overwhelmed and heartbroken self felt like doing, I would have missed out on what turns out to be truly amazing moments in my life.

When I go to bed at night, I have no idea how the next day is going to turn out. To be completely honest, there have been plenty of times I’ve assumed it was going to be the same or worse than its previous counterpart.

It’s like Peter Gibbons said in the movie Office Space:

So I was sitting in my cubicle today, and I realized, ever since I started working, every single day of my life has been worse than the day before it. So that means that every single day that you see me, that’s on the worst day of my life. 

It’s really easy to get sucked into that negative mentality when life is challenging.

When I went into this weekend, I had no idea that I would presented with the opportunity to take my kids to see a really amazing movie. I had no idea that I would get to bask in their excitement and wonder as the memories we made together got filed away.

There was no way to know how many times Emmett would end up making me smile or how many hugs I’d get from Elliott.

My day hasn’t been without challenge but overall it’s been pretty darn amazing and I’m so glad that I pushed through yesterday to get here.

That’s why I never quit, give-up or walk away when things get tough. You never know what you’re going to miss.  😀

If you take anything away from this, please let it be this. Never give up. I know first hand how hard it can be to find the strength to get up each morning after not getting nearly enough sleep, knowing that I will likely face at least one meltdown before school.

What I really try to remember is that it’s easy to predict many of the challenges each day will bring. Those amazing moments we all live for, are like little Easter eggs hidden throughout the day.

You have to play the game to win the prize.

All you can do is your best. All anyone can expect from you is your best.

At the end of the day, sometimes just not giving up is the most amazing victory of all. ☺