I wanted to update you all as to what is going to happen this week with Gavin. At this point, honestly, I think he's coming home. I don't like the idea because I know that nothing has changed with Gavin and it will only be a matter of time before this happens again.
I don't mean to sound cold but it's not safe to have Gavin in the house right now.
At this point in time, barring some miracle, when Gavin is released this week, he will return home. Lizze and I both, have mixed feelings about this.
One one hand, we miss our son. However, on the other hand, we can't absorb much more of his behavior. The stress in the house when he's home is unbearable and I can't allow it to continue.
Right now we are making plans for him to return. Those plans include major safety precautions.
We are going to move Elliott's bed into our room. At night, we are going to lock ourselves in our room. That means that Elliott, Emmett, Maggie, Bella, Cleo, Lizze and myself will all sleep behind a locked door.
I'm reinstalling an alarm on Gavin's door. I say *reinstalling *because he broke the one currently in place.
We are going to put a padlock on the closet in the bathroom as well as the cabinets in the kitchen. All silverware and knives will be moved into those locked cabinets. Anything that can be used as a weapon will have to be secured or removed from the house, not that we have weapons but you get the point.
I don't mean this to sound dramatic but I think it's pretty much a common sense move.
We've done the lock ourselves in our room thing before when things got bad. It's not fun and I can't imagine it sends a good message to Gavin but the reality is that safety is the priority here and Gavin has proven to be very dangerous. We can't afford to take any chances.
Our options are extremely limited at this point because of his complexity. Aside from the Cleveland Clinic, Rainbow Babies and perhaps something in Columbus, there is nowhere that is equipped to handle his needs. I'm really trying to find a silver lining here but I just do the see one. I'm really nervous about Gavin coming home. I love him tremendously but he's a threat to himself and those around him, when he gets upset. I have to keep everyone safe and until we figure something else out, we'll have to run the *Lost and Tired *household like a prison.
I know this may seem like I'm making a big deal out of nothing hut those of you out there that have personal experience with things like this, know exactly what I'm talking about.
Perhaps Akron Children's Hospital will be able to figure something out. Maybe they can get him into Cleveland, I think that would be ideal for right now.
Fingers crossed...
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