At 4:15pm tomorrow afternoon we will find out the results of Emmett's ADOS testing. I have come to grips with Autism being the most likely diagnosis. Despite coming to "grips" with it I don't know how I will react. Actually that's not true, I do know how I will react. I will break down right there. I'll fight it for as long as I can so Emmett doesn't get stressed out but I will lose the fight and the tears will fall.
I can't see any other possible outcome. He is clearly Autistic. My best guess would be that he has Aspergers at the very least. He is basically non-verbal and significantly developmentally delayed. These are just the facts...... It's really hard to tell the level of functioning when he has little in the means of language and communication. I we were going to be receiving good news then they would have just told us over the phone, right? Instead they wanted us to be seen 2 months early.....
I have been trying to be positive if spite of all these facts but I think sometimes I just have to be realistic..... No amount of prayer or positive thinking is going to change tomorrow's outcome. I'll still pray and try to be positive but we have done this song and dance 3 times now... I'm getting sick to my stomach thinking about it...
